imaginarybulb (imaginarybulb) wrote,

You and I

Title: You and I
Author: imaginarybulb
Pairing(s): Kyuhyun/Hangeng
Rating: PG-13
Summary: No matter what happens, even when the sky is falling down…I’ll promise you, that I’ll never let you go
Note: -Part of Kyuhyun’s Love Stories SERIES. Previous installment(s): Andante (Kyuhyun/Jungsu) | I Did Wrong (Kyuhyun/Heechul)

Based on the song: You and I – 박봄 of 투에니원 (Park Bom of 2NE1)
Based on the MV: Based loosely on the MV of You and I – 박봄 of 투에니원 (Park Bom of 2NE1)
Pairing: KyuHan (Kyuhyun/Hankyung)

No matter what happens
Even when the sky is falling down
I’ll promise you
That I’ll never let you go

You, when I fell…
You held me back up with an unfaltering gaze
And you, through those sad times
Held my hands till the end of the world

“You may kiss each other.”

Kyuhyun smiled, his heart was beating faster and his cheeks went red in anticipation. He stared at the male in front of him – his husband – who’s grinning in happiness.

“Kiss him!! Kiss him!!”

He darted his eyes towards the voices and his smile widen at the sight of his group members – all 13 of them – cheering and whistling and urging them to kiss. He then shyly looked at his husband, Hankyung, who looked at him in a loving gaze, and Kyuhyun’s heart fluttered.

Taking a deep breath, Kyuhyun closed his eyes and slowly leaned towards the Chinese male and Hankyung mirrored his action, but with his eyes open and a goofy smile on his face. The members were cheering louder (despite the fact that they were in a church) and he swears he could hear Donghae, Eunhyuk, Sungmin and Henry making smooches sound to encourage the two newlyweds.

And they kissed.

After that, Hankyung grabbed Kyuhyun’s hand and dragged him away from the church, from straying eyes, and led him outside. They continued running, hand in hand, laughing and grinning at each other, while the members cheering at them. They stopped to climb on a red scooter belonged to Hankyung and vroom away from the loud and noisy members.

Kyuhyun smiled as he hugged Hankyung’s waist tighter and the older male only grinned as he drove the scooter through a narrow, empty but calm road with trees at both sides of the road. He had always dreamt of this day to come, but he had never expected it to happen in reality. It was a great feeling; finally they are together, officially as husband and…well, husband.

I want to have a big family with Hankyung.

Kyuhyun thought dreamily as he tightened the grip around Hankyung’s waist and he heard the older male laughed, probably knowing what he was thinking.

Suddenly he felt as if they were floating slowly and when he raised his head that was resting on Hankyung’s warm back to see if he was imagining things, his eyes widen when he found that they were actually starting to
float, slowly.

He should’ve been scared, panic, or maybe wailed as the scooter slowly floated up the air higher and higher, but seeing Hankyung’s calming smile, Kyuhyun’s fear washed off instantly and he smiled back, suddenly feeling calm.

He rested his head on Hankyung’s back again, enjoying the calm feeling. He had always love flying and now his dreams had come true, twice. Why not enjoy this rare opportunity? And he’s sure that no one had fly on a scooter except him.

So that’s what he did, resting his head on Hankyung’s back as the Chinese male humming to their song, ignoring the change in their surroundings. The bright sun on blue sky was gone and replaced by a beautiful full moon shining brightly in the dark sky. There were pretty fireworks around them; blue, purple, orange, pink, green, red, creating colorful lights and Kyuhyun would’ve laugh and say they’re crazy if it happened to other people, but now, he had never been happier.

If this is a dream, he didn’t want to wake up, ever.

Kyuhyun’s head jerked up instantly, waking him up from his nap. Looking at his surrounding sleepily, he couldn’t help but to feel disappointed when he realized that he was dreaming.

It was such a weird dream.

He rubbed his eyes sleepily and yawned as he propped his chin on the back of his palm. He stared at nothingness as a dreamy smile crept on his face. He had been dreaming about his ‘wedding’ with his lover, Hankyung for almost every time he fell asleep. Call him an idiot, a fool but Kyuhyun didn’t care.

Because he’s not an idiot or a fool, he’s just someone in love.

Kyuhyun giggled to himself at the thought as he played with the silver ring Hankyung had gave him on their first date.

A weird, but nice dream.


When the management announced about a new sub-group called Super Junior M (despite the contrary believe), Kyuhyun was

Sure he’s excited meeting a new Chinese member called Zhou Mi and get to sing with Henry like he had promised the younger male when the management said he won’t be added to Super Junior, but he was upset – or more like scared, because he would have to go to China, away from home, family and friends.

Sure, he had gone to Japan before, but that was with the other members; with Leeteuk’s protection and Sungmin’s company. But you see, no matter how mature Kyuhyun looked and acted, he’s still a young boy. If he were to go anywhere far, Leeteuk is always there with him, making him feel safe and protected. But now, he’ll go to China, a foreign place without the leader.

However, as the time passed, when Kyuhyun felt like giving up because he’s worn out from all the practices, from not being able to communicate properly because he’s not a Chinese, from being homesick,
Hankyung was there for him.

When he’s feeling tired and just wanted to run away because he couldn’t get the choreography right,
Hankyung was there, staying late with him, teaching him the choreography with so much patient and smile.

When he’s frustrated for not being understand by or understand the staffs because of his lousy Mandarin,
Hankyung was there, translating everything for him and teach him Mandarin patiently.

When he was crying and distances himself from other Super Junior M members because he missed Korea, missed Leeteuk’s nags, missed the other members, missed his parents,
Hankyung was there, coaxing him, rubbing small circles on his back and hugged him until he’s finally fell asleep.

Kyuhyun didn’t know when, but between those times, he fell in love with the Chinese male.


I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you
But today, I am singing this song just for you

Kyuhyun bit his lips as he read the recipe book in his hands.

Here he was, in the middle of night, in a small café in China, reading a thick recipe book for making cupcakes. If other members saw him, they would’ve laughed their asses off seeing their snarky, Evil Maknae reading a recipe book like a girl.

But, what the hell, Hankyung loves cupcakes so he’s going to push away his pride and ego and make some for him.

This is the least he could do for the Chinese male.

Hankyung had helped him through hard times a lot and he really wanted to do something for the older male. But, he couldn’t find anything that can show he was happy having Hankyung by his side.

“As long as you’re here with me, by my side, I’m happy.”

Hankyung had said that to him one day, but Kyuhyun still felt like it’s not enough. When he asked Hankyung if he wanted any help or anything, the Chinese male would always smile and grabbed his hand while shaking head, “I don’t need anything but you.”

Sure, it was flattering and Kyuhyun ended up being as red as a tomato, but the younger male still felt as if it’s not enough.

When he thinks about it, he had never done anything for Hankyung and it saddens him. He wished he could be more useful for Hankyung, but instead he always gets into trouble and Hankyung (when Leeteuk’s not there) would be the one helping him. And if the management found out about what he just did recently, he’s sure Hankyung would be the one apologizing for him.

Kyuhyun stopped the scooter when his eyes caught something. His eyes darted on a small Christmas tree that was adorned with colorful lights displayed in front a small shop. He tilted his head as he stared the Christmas trees, ignoring the colorful lights piercing his eyes before an idea popped in his mind.

A grin crept on Kyuhyun’s face.

Tonight, within those two eyes and a smile
I can see the pains from protecting me

Kyuhyun almost skipped in the church, humming to their song. He felt like he had accomplished something today because he finally figured out what to give to Hankyung as to show his gratitude towards the older male.

He slowed down when he approached the place he was heading, a smile on his face. Slowly, he tip-toed to the door and opened it slowly. He peeked inside the small room and his smile widen at the sight of Hankyung.

The older male was resting on the bed with his back against the headboard and he was smiling as he scribbled something on his small notebook with maroon cover.

It was something Hankyung did recently; he would always rest on the bed while scribbling something in the note book (that Kyuhyun never had the chance to look at because he would hide it in a locked drawer) and hummed to their song.

It was something Hankyung did recently; after he left Super Junior.

It was something Hankyung did recently; after he was diagnosed with cancer.


When Hankyung left Super Junior, Kyuhyun was devastated and heart-broken.

He remembered crying his eyes out calling for Hankyung over and over again, throwing tantrum to the members for not stopping the Chinese male, pulling a hunger strike as a protest towards the management for letting Hankyung go.

But then, one day, he decided to go to China to find Hankyung.

Of course, it was a secret and he had planned everything carefully. Since the management had restricted any contact with the Chinese male, Kyuhyun couldn’t tell them he wanted to go to China just like that.

So he lied.

He told the management and the members that he wanted to spend some time with his family for a few days and he told his family that he wanted to take a break for a while. Of course it went smoothly considering the fact that he’s a pretty good liar (though he felt guilty for lying at Leeteuk and his family) and on the D-Day, he went to China, secretly.

He had hard time trying to find the older male at first but one day, when he was grunting about
where the hell is Hankyung hyung!? his eyes darted towards a familiar male exiting the taxi and went to the hospital across the café Kyuhyun was at.

Blinking as his eyes widen in realization, Kyuhyun quickly stood up from the chair and went towards the male (secretly of course) and followed him to the hospital.

Why would he go to the hospital? Are his relatives sick?

Kyuhyun tip-toed as he followed Hankyung, watching as the older male smiling and bowing towards the nurses and doctors.

After a few minutes following, his steps came to halt when Hankyung stopped to talk to a male doctor. He quickly hid behind a wall and peeked towards the two males, trying to hear the conversations between the two but he couldn’t make it out since they were talking in hushed tones.

What are they talking about?

Feeling curious, Kyuhyun stepped out of his hiding place when the two males entered the doctor’s room. He crouched in front of the door, placing his ear on the door to listen to their conversations.

Kyuhyun is bad at Mandarin; he couldn’t really speak or understand it very well.

But he definitely understood when he heard
‘Hankyung’ and ‘cancer’ in one sentence.


Hankyung stared wide eyes at the sight of the maknae, looking at him with the same wide-eyes look. He bit his lips guiltily, not knowing what to say towards the maknae.

“Is it true?”

Hankyung’s head snapped up and his heart ached to see the tears that threatened to fall off Kyuhyun’s soft chocolate brown orbs. He planned to keep this a secret until he
died, but it seems like the fate is not by his side.

“Hyung… Is it true? That-That…. That you….”

The Chinese male hesitated at first before he nodded slowly and the damp in Kyuhyun’s eyes broke as tears rolled down his cheeks, “Is this the reason… Y-You… You left?”

When Hankyung didn’t say anything, Kyuhyun broke on his knees.


“Gege~” Kyuhyun sing-sang and the smile on his face turned into a grin when the Chinese male’s gaze met him and a soft smile on his slightly pale face. Kyuhyun entered the room; it’s small and there’s only one single bed which is for Hankyung, a medium-sized television, a stool, a drawer and an IV tube. The wall is painted green and there’s a small window on the head of the bed.

After finding out about the cancer, Hankyung had insisted living in this small room at the church and decided not to get any treatment and just live his life like this.


Kyuhyun asked, frowning at the Chinese male who’s looking around the small room, his back facing the maknae. Hankyung just hummed in reply before he turned around and sat on the bed, smiling at Kyuhyun.

Kyuhyun’s frown deepened.

“I’m going to die anyway, Kyuhyun-ah… It’s the final stage—”

“No!” Kyuhyun cuts him off. He went towards Hankyung and kneeled in front of him, his eyes started to water as he grabbed Hankyung’s hands.

“Hyung… Please, don’t give up just yet! Please…. Please get the treatment; I’m sure the doctor would try everything to save you! So, please….” Kyuhyun cried, tears gushing out of his eyes, “Please don’t give up just yet….”

Hankyung smiled softly as he wiped Kyuhyun’s tears, “Thank you, Kyuhyun-ah… For coming here. Truth is, I’m really scared when I found out about this because I don’t have anyone to tell to. I definitely couldn’t tell my family or the members and I was scared if I would die alone. But when you’re here, I’m not scared at anything anymore.”

“Hyung…” Kyuhyun choked out and Hankyung pressed a finger on his lips, shushing him. “I’m dying, Kyuhyun-ah… And I don’t want to spend this last bit of my times in the hospital and died in a place with strangers who had the same fate with me.”

Kyuhyun cried harder and he buried his face into Hankyung’s lap, pouring his tears out.


“Kyuhyun-ah… You’ve stayed in China for two weeks now… What about Super Junior? Do they know about you being here?”

Kyuhyun looked up at Hankyung, stopping his activity (clipping Hankyung’s nails). The older male was wearing a blue hospital clothes and an IV tube was connected to his hand. Hankyung stared at him and Kyuhyun returned to his activity, avoiding Hankyung’s gaze, “Yeah… They knew I’m in China.. Besides, it’s okay, I already told them that I’m taking a break.”

There’s no way he would tell Hankyung that he practically ran away from Korea just to meet him. He knew if Hankyung found out about it, the older male would probably call the management, apologizing and saying it’s all his fault and send him back to Korea. Like he always did when he wanted to protect Kyuhyun.

No, Kyuhyun would
never tell the truth.

Kyuhyun knew Hankyung was suspicious, but the older male decided to shrug the matter off, much to Kyuhyun’s liking.

“You’re here?” Hankyung said, placing his note book into the drawer and locked it. Kyuhyun nodded and went towards the Chinese male and kissed his cheek, “How are you feeling?”

“Better that you’re here,” Hankyung grinned. Kyuhyun snorted and rolled his eyes, his cheeks redden, “Oh, shut up.”

“So, what are we going to do today?” Hankyung asked, rubbing his palm together in anticipation.

Kyuhyun grinned, “Let’s play video game!!”

You and I together,
It’s just feels so right

“I’m going to kick your ass, hyung!”

“Ha! As if!”

“Just watch….” the maknae smirked. The two of them kept their eyes fixed on the television screen.


“ONE!!” they screamed in unison as they lifted their game console in the same time, their fingers rapidly pressing the buttons. They smashed the buttons as their eyes glued to the screen in concentration and their bodies moved to the sides according to the direction of the cars in the screen.

“Stop copying me!” Hankyung yelled, a grin on his face.

“Am not!” Kyuhyun retorted with a scoff. “Yah! You’re cheating!” the maknae exclaimed when his car was left behind by Hankyung’s which was speeding in a full speed.

Frowning, Kyuhyun pressed the buttons harder but his car still couldn’t match with Hankyung’s speed. Feeling frustrated, he placed his hand in front of the concentrating Chinese male, blocking his view. Hankyung laughed and slapped away Kyuhyun’s invading hand lightly before the maknae kicking his leg lightly.

“Oh! Yeahhh!!! I win!!” Hankyung exclaimed, raising his console happily while Kyuhyun scowled and pouted before he shoved the male who’s shouting in victory, sending him tumbling to the wall, but the older male kept laughing loudly.

“You’re cheating!”

“I’m not! I won fair and square, Kyuhyun-ah. Live with it!” he poked his tongue out and Kyuhyun scowled before he broke into laughter, along with Hankyung.

It’s good to see his lover smiled and laughed like this.
Our love has changed a bit by bit just like others
But don’t be sad
Hopefully I will be someone who you can trust like an old friend
And someone you can lean onto
I promise you that I’ll be right here baby

Hankyung stared at the green field in front of him. The wind was blowing softly against his hair and he smiled calmly. It was a routine; every evening (and morning), Kyuhyun would bring him here, watching the beautiful scenery together.

He remembered, the first time Kyuhyun brought him here.

He was scribbling something on his note book like always when Kyuhyun came. The younger male still has his beautiful smile on his face as he greeted him and Hankyung couldn’t help but to smile back at him.

“Hyung…” he called, “I want to take you somewhere out.”

Hankyung closed his note book and placed it into the drawer beside his back and locked it, “Where?”

Kyuhyun grinned and winked, “A secret.”


After a few while Kyuhyun pushing his wheelchair towards some unknown place, he finally untied the blindfold on Hankyung’s eyes, letting the light pierced into the older male’s eyes. Blinking to adjust the light, Hankyung opened his eyes slowly, and his jaw instantly dropped in astonishment.


He was amazed by the sight in front of him. There was a huge green field; the grass was swaying as the wind blew past through them. The sun shone brightly, highlighting every part of the field. There’s a white windmill that was moving slowly.

Kyuhyun grinned and pushed his wheelchair towards a single tree that stood at the middle of the field. They stopped when they reached under the tree and Kyuhyun kneeled down next to him, a smile on his face, “This is for you, Hankyung hyung.”

“Wh-Where is this place?” Hankyung asked, too shocked to say anything.

Kyuhyun returned his gaze towards the large field, “I found this place behind the church. It was kinda hidden and I guess I’m the first person discovered this place. So… I planned to make this place as our place.”

“Our place?”

Kyuhyun nodded and turned his head to face Hankyung. He grabbed the older male’s hands, “This will be our secret place from now on. Away from everyone, away from everything. It would be just you and me here and no one else. And this tree,” he raised his head to look at the huge tree, “Is also ours. I wanted to call it Kyuhan.”


“Yep, our pairing name!” the maknae grinned, “That’ll mean we’re going to be together forever and ever, just like how this tree would stood here forever and ever.”

His grin fell into a sad smile as he played with their fingers, “This is the least I could do for you. You’re always there helping me, protecting me, and I really wanted to do the same for you. I’m sorry… If this is not enough—”

Hankyung cuts him off by pressing his lips on Kyuhyun’s. He pulled away and smiled at the wide-eyes Kyuhyun, “I love this. As long as you’re by my side, I’m happy.”

Hankyung smiled at the memory, butterflies flapped their wings in his stomach.

Kyuhyun… The love of his life.

Suddenly, fear started consuming in him. What if he died? He won’t be able to play games with Kyuhyun, to laugh with Kyuhyun, to watch this beautiful scenery with Kyuhyun.

He couldn’t see Kyuhyun anymore.

Slowly, he raised his right hand and Kyuhyun who was standing behind him quickly slipped his hand with his, holding it firmly. Kyuhyun knew what Hankyung was feeling right now, so he wrapped his left arm around the older male’s shoulder and gripped his right hand tighter, trying to tell the Chinese male that he’s here, by his side.

Hankyung tilted his head to the side and his eyes met Kyuhyun’s shining orbs. The maknae smiled at him before pressing a soft kiss on his lips. He pulled away and rested his head against Hankyung’s and the older male heaved a deep sigh.

A small smile tugged on Hankyung’s lips as calmness growing inside of him. They stayed like that for a while, watching the beautiful landscape in front of them.

No matter what, I’ll be by your side…


Kyuhyun hummed to their song as he whisked the whip cream. He was planning to make Hankyung some cupcakes because he knew the Chinese male’s love for cupcakes, especially the colorful ones.

He had went through various recipe books and from the Internet and he decided to make the three basic flavored cupcakes; strawberry, vanilla and chocolate, but with different decorations and fillings. He also planned to make a cake for the older male, since it would be Christmas in a few days.

Contrary to the popular belief, Kyuhyun is very good in baking (well, because he followed every steps in the recipe book accurately). He smiled at himself as the sight of 20 different colors cupcakes and a regular-sized cake with Merry Christmas written on it.

Wookie hyung would be proud of me.

Glancing at the clock, Kyuhyun quickly washed all the baking utensils, cleaning up his working place and arranged the cupcakes and cake beautifully on the table, hoping that Hankyung would be happy seeing these. Of course, he won’t be there when the Chinese male see the cupcakes and cake because he didn’t want to be embarrassed by the older male praising him and probably tell the whole world how Super Junior’s Evil Maknae just baked for him.

Oh no, he couldn’t live with that.

So, here he was, in the small green room, biting his lips nervously, hoping that everything went well.

You and I together,
Don’t ever let go of my hands

Hankyung stared at the dark sky in front of him, tears brimming in his eyes.

He couldn’t take it anymore.

It had been 8 months Kyuhyun in China with him and Hankyung was happy having his younger lover by his side. However, somehow, he knew Kyuhyun was lying at him when he told him that the members and management knew that he was in China, taking a break, but since there’s no call coming from the management, he thought everything was fine and maybe Kyuhyun was telling the truth.

Until this morning.

Kyuhyun was getting him something to drink and Hankyung was left alone to watch the landscape in front of him. He was humming to their song when he heard Kyuhyun’s phone rang. He was contemplating whether to answer it or not; and after a few minutes of pondering, Kyuhyun’s voice piped in.

‘I can’t answer the phone right now, please leave down the message. *beep*’

“Hello? Kyuhyun-ah.”

Hankyung froze when he heard their manager’s voice.

“Yah, it’s been 8 months!
Where the hell are you!? Are you aware it’s a mess here because of your absence!? I get it you wanted to take a break, but at least tell us where you are! The members were getting restless over here, worrying about you. Your family was also worried about you, Kyuhyun-ah. And what’s more, the fans won’t stop asking about you. Don’t tell me you needed a break or shit like that, because I think 8 months of disappearance is enough.”

What… Disappearance? Kyuhyun…

“Kyuhyun-ah… Tell me, did you run away because of Hankyung?”

Hankyung’s heart pounded in his chest.

A sigh, “Look, Kyuhyun-ah… You have to move on… You can’t continue acting like this! The members
needed you so much. Leeteuk and Ryeowook won’t stop crying because they missed you so much. Everything was a mess without you, Kyuhyun-ah. Please come back home… And…”

Hankyung waited as the manger heaved a heavy sigh.

“I’m afraid that the management had been talking about cutting off your contract.”

Hankyung’s jaw clenched; he was being selfish. He was supposed to tell the members and the management about Kyuhyun’s whereabouts, but instead, he kept Kyuhyun here, by his dying side. Now that he thinks about it, it was unfair for him to make Kyuhyun stay by his side. He was dying and he made Kyuhyun stayed and watched him die.

Oh God, what have I done?

Hankyung bit his lips as he started to move in his wheelchair.

What if I died? Then Kyuhyun would be alone… And God, what if his contract was terminated—

Hankyung screamed as tears gushed out of his eyes and his hands rapidly pushed the wheels, moving the wheelchair faster and faster by each second. His heart was pounding loudly as he was getting closer to the edge of the stairs.

Closer, closer, closer, closer—

And the wheelchair fell off the stairs, loud thumping noises echoed through the empty night.

And Hankyung laid on the cold ground, his breathe came out heavy. His heart thumping fast and loud against his ribcage.

“Hyung… No matter what, I’ll be by your side, okay?”

He stared at the black sky above him, the stars scattered all over the black sky, shimmering beautifully.

“So, don’t be afraid….”

A smile crept on Hankyung’s face that slowly turn wider and wider until he finally broke into a fit of laughter.

“I would always love you, Hankyung hyung…”

That night, Hankyung wasn’t sure if he was laughing or crying.


Hankyung grinned as he tip-toed into his room. It’s already night and he knew Kyuhyun would probably sleeping in his room. And sure enough, as soon as he entered his room, he saw the maknae sleeping peacefully on the bed.

Sighing, he went towards the small stool beside the bed and sat on it. He rested his chin on his fist, admiring his beautiful lover. He had always loved watching Kyuhyun sleeping. The way Kyuhyun’s long lashes fell on his cheeks, the way his lips always quirked into a small smile, the way his calm breathing act as a lullaby for Hankyung, the way he slightly gripped Hankyung’s shirt when they were sleeping together, Hankyung loves every single of them.

He softly stroked Kyuhyun’s cheek, I’m sorry… I wished you won’t have to go through this…

His heart ached seeing Kyuhyun leaving everything behind him just for him. A dying man.

No matter how strong Kyuhyun looked outside, he knew the maknae was crying inside. He remembered there’s one day where Kyuhyun finally break and started to give up.

“Kyuhyun….” Hankyung tried to approach the maknae, but he was too weak to move. He just stayed motionless on that damn wheelchair as Kyuhyun fell on his knees and started to cry.

“Why, hyung!? WHY!? Why won’t you get the treatment!? Why are you giving up!!??” the maknae screamed on top of his lungs, tears gushing out of his eyes as he started hitting his chest.

“You know how worried I was!? I can’t live like this anymore! How could you do this to me!! How could you go on and kill yourself like this!? Then, what about me!? What about me if you died!?”

Hankyung gripped the wheelchair, tears forming in his eyes. He had fallen unconscious earlier because of the pain and thank God there’s someone there found him or else…

“Fine, if you wanted to give up, then… Then I’ll give up on you too!! I HATE YOU!” Hankyung watched helplessly as Kyuhyun stood up and turn around before running away, leaving him behind.

But of course, that night, Kyuhyun came back with an apologetic smile on his face and food for them.

“I’m sorry, hyung. I promise I won’t leave you and cry again…”

He even made cupcakes and cake for me…
Hankyung thought silently as a soft chuckle escaped him. He could imagine what Kyuhyun looked like while making those. In an apron, flour all over his cute face, the way he would scrunch his nose or maybe scowling.

He shook his head lightly, an amused smile on his face, and they tasted delicious too.

Slowly, he took out his note book from the drawer. Flipping the page silently, he took a pencil and started drawing.

He wanted to capture the sight of Kyuhyun sleeping.

He began sketching Kyuhyun’s features; from his high cheekbones to his bow-shaped lips to his black and long lashes to his broad nose to his tousled, soft auburn hair.

Hankyung smiled as he finished his drawing before he placed the note book on the drawer. He then pulled the cover higher on Kyuhyun’s body and he couldn’t help but to chuckle seeing Kyuhyun softly smiled in his sleep.

I wonder what he’s dreaming about this time…

Kyuhyun smiled as he rested his head on Hankyung’s shoulder and the older male grinned and rested his head on top of Kyuhyun’s. The two of them eyed the small baby girl in front of them.

After their wedding, they decided to adopt a child and raised her together.

They haven’t thought of the name though.

“What about—”

Kyuhyun opened his eyes slowly and he was met with the sight of smiling Hankyung, watching him. He stared at the Chinese male for a while before his eyes widen and he quickly jumped on his bed, startling Hankyung. He looked around him, shoot! I fell asleep!?

“Hyung! I’m so sorry! What time is it!? Oh God—”

Hankyung laughed, cutting the maknae, “Calm down, Kyuhyun-ah. It’s fine, I like watching you sleeping.”

Kyuhyun scowled, “Aish… That’s just creepy.” He sighed, “You have to rest, Hankyung hyung… And I just took the only bed in this room…” he shook his head lightly before his eyes darted on a small note book on top of the drawer.

“Eh? Ah! This is yours right? I’ve been curious of what you wrote in this…” he trailed of as he reached for the note book but Hankyung beat him to it.

“Nuh-uh, you can’t,” the Chinese male raised the book higher, out of Kyuhyun’s reach.

Kyuhyun pouted, “Aww… But I wanna see it! Just a little peek—” he reached for the note book and succeeds in holding it, but Hankyung’s grip went tighter.

“No! You can’t!”

“Hyung! Just a peek!”

“No!” Hankyung snatched the book away and held it tightly to his chest.


The older male shook his head, a smile on his face, “I’ll give it to you when it’s time.

No one in the world can replace you
You are the only one and I’ll be there for you baby

It’s Christmas.

And here Hankyung is; on a wheelchair, in the middle of the night with Kyuhyun behind him, closing his eyes.

“Kyuhyun-ah… Where are we?” the older male asked and he heard Kyuhyun chuckled before he felt the hands that were blocking his sight disappeared.

“No peeking, okay?” the maknae asked and Hankyung could feel Kyuhyun smiling in front of him while waving his hand in front of his face to check if he was peeking. Sure, he had closed his eyes and couldn’t see anything, but he could always feel Kyuhyun’s presence and what the maknae was doing even with his eyes closed.

That’s how much he loves Kyuhyun.

Hankyung smiled to himself and Kyuhyun stood up and went towards the red scooter. Grinning, he turned on the engine and using the power from the scooter, it turned on the projector he had placed near a black wall.

It’s his present for Hankyung.

“Open your eyes!”

Hankyung opened his eyes slowly and he saw Kyuhyun painting a huge black wall with silver paint. He frowned, what is he doing? He saw his red scooter and there were red and white balloons tied to it and a projector in front of him.

He tilted his head as he saw an image started to form on the wall that Kyuhyun was painting.

Kyuhyun continued painting the black wall and Hankyung gaped seeing a partial image of a huge Christmas tree started to form on the wall. Even though it was not a real thing and just an image from a projector, it was beautiful.

Without him realizing it, tears started to form in his eyes.

“Hyung!!” Kyuhyun grinned as he finished painting the wall and the image of Christmas tree was fully formed on the wall. The maknae was jumping up and down enthusiastically with a huge grin on his face as he frantically waved towards Hankyung,

“Merry Christmas! And I love you!”

Hankyung cried that night.

I love you too…


The wind was blowing softly, swaying the grass. The windmill was moving slowly as the wind past through it.

He was walking through the green field that belonged to them; a maroon covered note book in his hand.

He sighed softly as he stopped and stood in the middle of the field, watching the beautiful landscape in front of him.

If only you were here… Hankyung hyung….

Kyuhyun was skipping and humming again to visit Hankyung. He was happy today because he finally made something that can make Hankyung happy. He remembered last night; Hankyung was crying in happiness because of his special present. Even though the older male was looking paler day by day, but the smile on his face never faltered.

I wonder what I should make next time… Kyuhyun thought happily.

He was giggling to himself when his steps coming to halt and his eyes widen in horror.

The Super Junior members – all 13 of them – and their managers were standing in front of him.

“Kyuhyun-ah!” Leeteuk exclaimed with teary face as he ran towards the maknae and pulled him into a hug.

“Oh my God! We’re so worried of you!! Thank God you’re fine!” the leader said as stroked Kyuhyun’s hair, a smile on his teary face. He cupped Kyuhyun’s cheeks, “Let’s go home, neh?”

Kyuhyun instantly snapped from his reverie, “W-What…?”

“Let’s go home. To Korea. I promise, everything will be better—”

“No! I don’t want to!” Kyuhyun said, jerking away from Leeteuk’s held. The members eyes widened in surprise, “Wh-Why?” Leeteuk asked.

“Why are you here? How did you know I’m here?” Kyuhyun asked back, ignoring Leeteuk’s question.

“Kyuhyun-ah….” Kyuhyun stepped back when Leeteuk gets closer to him. “Tell me hyung. How did you know I’m here?”

Leeteuk bit his lips and started fiddling with his fingers before his manage speak out, “Hankyung told us. He called us and said you’re here.”

Kyuhyun’s eyes widen,
how did he knew… Realization hits him, I left my phone…

“Shit!” Kyuhyun exclaimed and started to run, but Leeteuk caught him.

“Kyuhyun! We have to leave!”

“No, hyung! Let me go! I want to stay!” Kyuhyun said, jerking his arm from Leeteuk’s grip but the leader just gripped it tighter.

“You can’t, Kyuhyun-ah! Did you realize that your career is at risk right now!?”

Kyuhyun was dumbfounded, his singing career is at risk?

“You disappeared for 10 months, Kyuhyun-ah! The management had been talking about terminating your contract!” Sungmin said, worries etched on his face.

Kyuhyun hesitated, he loves singing and it was his life.

But Hankyung…

“Hyung, just let me meet Hankyung hyung for a while…”


“I have to meet him, hyung! He…. He….” Kyuhyun bit his lips, hesitating about telling the members about Hankyung’s condition.

“Kyuhyun… We have to leave… If… If you’re not in Korea today, there’s a chance that your contract will be terminated…” Leeteuk said, almost at verge of tears again.

Kyuhyun clenched his jaw; he had to make the choice.

Singing or Hankyung.

Leeteuk smiled in relief when Kyuhyun hugged him, but his smile fell when Kyuhyun pulled away, “I’m sorry, hyung.”

Even though I bid you goodbye,
To me this world is just you

He sighed as he flipped the note book open. He read the messy hand-writings belonged to his beloved, it had been 3 months.

Hankyung breathe in the fresh air. The wind was playing in his hair and everything was so peaceful. He trailed his eyes to the phone in his eyes, a soft smile on his lips,
they must be here right now.

His smile fell into a sad one and tears brimming in his eyes. He closed his eyes, a single tear rolled down his cheek, I’m sorry, Kyuhyun.


His head snapped towards the sweet, velvety voice belonged to Kyuhyun and tears gushed out of his eyes seeing the maknae running towards him with teary eyes.

I’m sorry…

Suddenly, he felt pain surged through his body. It was painful. Far more painful than before.

It’s time.

He groaned in pain and fell from his wheelchair.

He remembered; the halt in Kyuhyun’s steps.

He remembered; the horror look on Kyuhyun’s face.

He remembered; the heavy tears gushed out of Kyuhyun’s eyes.

He remembered; the shout of ‘Hyung!’ from Kyuhyun’s lips.

He remembered; the feeling of the soft grass in his hand.

He remembered; before darkness engulfed him.

A soft smile crept on his bow-shaped lips as he trailed his fingers on his picture sketched by his lover.

So, this is why you hid it from me?

He chuckled airily as the wind blew past him as if agreeing with him.

Kyuhyun ran towards the green field behind the church as fast as he could. He remembered that Hankyung had been acting weird lately; he had been asking about Super Junior a lot and if he had call the members to inform about his whereabouts.

He also noticed Hankyung always look at him with something dancing in his eyes.

Something like
longing, regret and sorry.

“Hyung!!” he yelled when he saw Hankyung under the huge tree in the middle of the field; Kyuhan.

We’ll be together forever….

He halted his steps when he saw Hankyung groaning in pain before fell on to the ground.

He remembered; the way Hankyung’s face contorted in pain.

He remembered; running towards the Chinese male, screaming ‘Hankyung hyung!!’

He remembered; scooping the Chinese male into his arms and continued calling him.

He remembered; crying and tears dripped onto Hankyung’s pale face.

He remembered; how Hankyung opened his eyes slowly and stretched a weak smile.

He remembered; the calloused fingers wiping his tears.

He remembered; Hankyung’s last word.

Kyuhyun closed the note book and let out a deep sigh. He held the book to his chest and looked up the blue sky; Hankyung’s word rang in his ears.

Thank you for staying by my side until my last breath…

I love you…


Just you and I
And ever…



Tags: member: hangeng, member: kyuhyun, pairing: kyuhyun/hangeng
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